Reflections

I am so severely depressed.

Times of joy seem like distant memories.

Six months of confinement (illegal confinement) on psychiatric wards being abused by staff and mentally ill patients.

Little hope. Identity confusion. At times, desperation and despair.

Oh LORD, how long? Why I must I feel perpetually miserable. I am anguished beyond tears.

Acute loneliness. Rejection. No focus. Nothing to look forward to. No love.

God, give me a reason to be cheerful, I beg of thee.

I am so sorrowful and I hate feeling this way.

Am I going to crawl into bed again and feel utterly miserable?