Reflections

I thought I would offer a few reflections on the mental health and hospital system in the United Kingdom as a way of helping me to process some of the cruelty and abuse I’m experiencing. I apologise in advance if my reflections are imperfect. When you’re experiencing extreme cruelty, institutional corruption and torture it can be difficult to write in an articulate way.

The National Health Service in the United Kingdom is not a health service, really, it has become a death service. The Mental Health Act is a cruel and oppressive piece of legislation which is used to control, subdue, and torture people who have done nothing wrong. The widespread use of electromagnetic radiation as a torture device is nothing short of criminal insanity by the UK institutions.

On this ward, all of the nurses and support workers, without a single exception, are of a black racial makeup, while nearly all of the ‘patients’ are white caucasian. The same was true in the hospital I was in before this one. Many of the staff are highly overweight African women who treat patients with neglect, cruelty, and abuse. Some of the staff are Christians and of course they bring light into the darkness. The over-employment of Africans in the mental health system seems to be organised, institutional abuse. Surely, the racial makeup of members of staff in all positions should reflect the racial makeup of the wider population. This is not happening in the NHS.

I do not believe I am mentally ill in any way. Back in May, I was sitting in my clean and tidy flat enjoying listening to worship music having cooked a delicious shepherd’s pie with fresh ingredients, and all of a sudden I had police and ambulance men bashing down the door to my flat and forcefully carrying me to hospital without any explanation concerning what they believed was wrong with my mental health. It’s possible my earthly father, Andrew, had something to do with this, as he has acted in a controlling, abusive, and unkind way throughout my life. It’s also the case that mental health professionals such as psychiatrists are deluded by Satan who causes them to act in egotistical, murderous, and hateful ways which give them a sense of fleeting power but will ultimately lead them into hell.

Within the hospital, the ‘office’ where the Africans sit and ‘work’ is sectioned off from the ward so they are able to deal with patients as little as possible, living in a kind of ‘protected’ bubble that allows them to usually carry out their cruel deeds within accountability. Fortunately, God still often gives me opportunity to remind them that they are acting in a evil way and are destined for hell, save they repent of their sins and find salvation through the atoning blood of the Lord Jesus Christ.

I have experienced a great deal of harassment on the ward, from females and males. Females will often use their energy to try to control my body, sometimes sexually, sometimes just by holding me in certain uncomfortable positions, and I believe their need to control men reflects their distance from God and the teachings of Scripture, making them overly concerned with sex rather than doing the will of the Lord Jesus Christ and being focused on honouring Him and sharing the Gospel. One male member of staff coughs at me and openly mocks me.

Sometimes I take the antipsychotic medication I am prescribed, because the doctors threaten you with (and act on) taking away your leave if you do not comply. For the last five days, I have been requesting Procyclidine to help with the awful effects of the antispychotic medication, but haven’t even been afforded an opportunity to speak with a doctor. Today I was told I am going to be refused Procyclidine because I don’t wish to have an ECG, which I have chosen not to do for ethical reasons related to the danger and cruelty of machines used in healthcare. If you don’t comply with their cruel and murderous activities, they make your life harder still.

I may have to refuse antipsychotics again, due to not getting Procyclidine, so my leave may well be stopped again, so I will literally just have to sit in my room being abused throughout the day and night. Even the food, which used to be a great blessing of NHS hospitals, is relatively poor on this ward.

I wonder whether the wider issue of religious persecution for my Christian faith is a major reason why I was detained in the first place and am recurringly detained and treated so awfully. Throughout my journey through the mental health system I have been a Christian who has spoken openly about his faith, and in recent years I have become rather well known owing to my evangelistic activities. It seems there has been an aggressive backlash by the authorities in terms of persecution. The police harass me with sirens on a daily basis, though all I ever do is respond to aggression, abuse and corruption by speaking the truth in a non-violent, honest and peaceful way.

I have been speaking with the Lord about justice a great deal recently, because when you are hurt by others continually you feel in a sense justice is warranted and deserved. However I always feel conflicted about this, because I wish for God to be merciful to everyone. No one would want to suffer the flames of hell after all, and in a world where we do not truly have free will, I can only hope that no one will be made to suffer too much. On the other hand, I sometimes get so angry with the suffering being inflicted upon me that at times God assures me that everlasting hell for evildoers is a just punishment. Lord, have mercy on us all.

The question of responsibility for the state of the NHS has been in my thoughts, and of course ultimately the Royal Family and our politicians are responsible. I have been praying for the King and for the Queen and all the Royal Family, that they are not deluded by Satan into organising and presiding over cruel systems which will ultimately lead to judgement coming upon them. My prayer is that the Royal Family read the Bible daily and pray about every decision they make in a loving way. I cannot believe that if they did this there would be so much evil in British society.